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I am curious if anyone else feels this way about it - or at least can understand where I am coming from with it. It's a bit confusing to me, which is why I am making this post.
The thing I absolutely cannot tolerate in a relationship is infidelity or cheating. The thought of any girl I have ever been in a relationship with having sex with another man behind my back is bone crushing to me. I always make it clear to any girl before we commit to each other. "The one major thing I ask is that you do not fuck me over. I do not want to feel that hurt." It's not something I obsess or worry over in the midst of a relationship. However, it is the thing that would absolutely hurt me most. I would never DREAM of sharing my girl, swinging, any of that. It's not even a thought in my mind. Even if I'm getting other action? Hell no.
But something with cuckold porn turns me on. It goes both ways, I'll add. I do like watching it through the eyes of the bull sometimes. However, sometimes... the cuckold's humiliating situation turns me on and I imagine myself in his shoes. The sheer pain that I imagine feeling in that moment comes to me just a little and it's embarrassing to admit. It turns me very on. I have ZERO... and I mean ZERO clue why. At times, I've even imagined myself in that situation with ex's while masturbating and it gets me hard.
I would not dream of being into that in real life. So, I am having trouble figuring out why (sometimes) putting myself in those shoes turns me on. The only thing I can think of is that it's similar to watching a horror movie. The thrill you get from watching such horrible things take place. Except in sexual form. Like, my most dreaded relationship fear coming true. So, it gives me a weird rush?
Is that a thing? Anyway, was just curious if anyone else could at least understand where I am coming from. LOATHING the idea, but getting a weird kinky turn on from it.
The thing I absolutely cannot tolerate in a relationship is infidelity or cheating. The thought of any girl I have ever been in a relationship with having sex with another man behind my back is bone crushing to me. I always make it clear to any girl before we commit to each other. "The one major thing I ask is that you do not fuck me over. I do not want to feel that hurt." It's not something I obsess or worry over in the midst of a relationship. However, it is the thing that would absolutely hurt me most. I would never DREAM of sharing my girl, swinging, any of that. It's not even a thought in my mind. Even if I'm getting other action? Hell no.
But something with cuckold porn turns me on. It goes both ways, I'll add. I do like watching it through the eyes of the bull sometimes. However, sometimes... the cuckold's humiliating situation turns me on and I imagine myself in his shoes. The sheer pain that I imagine feeling in that moment comes to me just a little and it's embarrassing to admit. It turns me very on. I have ZERO... and I mean ZERO clue why. At times, I've even imagined myself in that situation with ex's while masturbating and it gets me hard.
I would not dream of being into that in real life. So, I am having trouble figuring out why (sometimes) putting myself in those shoes turns me on. The only thing I can think of is that it's similar to watching a horror movie. The thrill you get from watching such horrible things take place. Except in sexual form. Like, my most dreaded relationship fear coming true. So, it gives me a weird rush?
Is that a thing? Anyway, was just curious if anyone else could at least understand where I am coming from. LOATHING the idea, but getting a weird kinky turn on from it.